I can't do this anymore

This may be the last time I'm logging on

I don't know if I've told all of you but Charlie dumped me
I'm not taking it so well
I tried to slit my wrists nearly three weeks ago because of it
Even though I have a new boyfriend (entirely out of emotional irrationality) I can't cope
I love Charlie so much
I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know what to do. I can't take it anymore. I can't do this.
I told Charlie that I hate him, and to never contact me again
I want to kill myself. I see no other answer right now.

So while I'm not saying anything for sure
I just needed to put this out there
I'm screaming inside
I'm so sorry guys, it's been so lovely to be a part of VT and get to know you all

calm down, suicide's not a solution. are you going to throw your life through the window just because of ONE guy? I don't care how important he is, just think that you will miss lots of beautiful things if you kill yourself. your whole family will be pretty sad because of that, and probably Charlie will to.

Don't let others destroy your life and your dreams for the future.

My grandma says time can heal any wound, and i'm sure it will heal yours too!

Yes Ren.
I'm sorry to tell you this, but don't be stupid. The end of the world hans't come yet. You are to young and is just stupid if you decide to do such a thing.
If you die, that's it, no more chances
But if you decide to keep on going, then you will turn out to learn more about the world and become a better you.
Hold on and keep walking.

This guy, no legs, no arms, and he smiles all the time, look the following videos, and you will see.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgAKZSTVEs4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKTg_INHgpc

How can he make it, because he choosed to keep going.

Originally Posted by cami

calm down, suicide's not a solution. are you going to throw your life through the window just because of ONE guy? I don't care how important he is, just think that you will miss lots of beautiful things if you kill yourself. your whole family will be pretty sad because of that, and probably Charlie will to.

Don't let others destroy your life and your dreams for the future.

My grandma says time can heal any wound, and i'm sure it will heal yours too!

Originally Posted by Tony_777

Yes Ren.
I'm sorry to tell you this, but don't be stupid. The end of the world hans't come yet. You are to young and is just stupid if you decide to do such a thing.
If you die, that's it, no more chances
But if you decide to keep on going, then you will turn out to learn more about the world and become a better you.
Hold on and keep walking.

This guy, no legs, no arms, and he smiles all the time, look the following videos, and you will see.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgAKZSTVEs4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKTg_INHgpc

How can he make it, because he choosed to keep going.

Thanks for your responses guys. Just want to let you know that I'm still ok. I struggle with severe mental illness, sometimes it gets the better of me. Last night was kinda one of those nights.

Thanks for your care and concern. It means a lot

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. But please please please reach out to someone for help. I promise you there someone out there to help you, sometimes the most unlikely person. I know there's not much I can say to help, but I'm here if you need someone to speak to.
*hugs*

I'm feeling a bit too drained to write something long and thought out, but, you can get through it Ren, it may seem like the end, but it's not.

Originally Posted by Dying Ember

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. But please please please reach out to someone for help. I promise you there someone out there to help you, sometimes the most unlikely person. I know there's not much I can say to help, but I'm here if you need someone to speak to.
*hugs*

I don't know if I can reach out to someone right now, but I do know that I'll be safe for a while. Don't worry about me too much. Thank you

Originally Posted by Vulkan

I'm feeling a bit too drained to write something long and thought out, but, you can get through it Ren, it may seem like the end, but it's not.

I'm trying the best I can. Thanks hun *hug*

Originally Posted by Karkat

I'm trying the best I can. Thanks hun *hug*

You know I'm always here to talk.

You and Charlie may be on bad terms, and mad with each other, but at the end of the days it's best to just drop it and say sorry and make up, I'd recommend trying that.

Originally Posted by Vulkan

You know I'm always here to talk.

Thanks I'll remember that

Originally Posted by CosmicNoodle

You and Charlie may be on bad terms, and mad with each other, but at the end of the days it's best to just drop it and say sorry and make up, I'd recommend trying that.

Weird thing is, we aren't mad at each other. I wasn't even TRULY mad at him at all, I was trying to cover up how deep in anguish I was, and how scared and confused I was.

We have made up, more or less, I think

I still feel so terrible though

Originally Posted by Karkat

Weird thing is, we aren't mad at each other. I wasn't even TRULY mad at him at all, I was trying to cover up how deep in anguish I was, and how scared and confused I was.

We have made up, more or less, I think

I still feel so terrible though

I know what that's like, someone fucks you up, then you make up, but it's not quite the same any more, right? (or am I talking shit again?)
There's a difference between making up and actually being cool with each other and trusting again.

Originally Posted by CosmicNoodle

I know what that's like, someone fucks you up, then you make up, but it's not quite the same any more, right? (or am I talking shit again?)
There's a difference between making up and actually being cool with each other and trusting again.

Yeah no, you're spot on

It's probably gonna take him a long time to trust me again, which sucks

And I just don't know how to feel in general...

Originally Posted by Karkat

Yeah no, you're spot on

It's probably gonna take him a long time to trust me again, which sucks

And I just don't know how to feel in general...

Thought so, exactly the same thing happened to me, but with me, they decided to cut off all contact with me and basically rip my heart out, one second it was all unicorns and flowers, next thing I know they ripped a part out of my very soul. I know what it's like (stop making this about yourself, Joe)

The best thing you can do, in my fairly inexperienced opinion, is to just say sorry, explain yourself, and then just give them time to come round, if they do at all. I'm sure he'll come to trust you in time, after all, he broke up with you.

At the end of the day,. one of you was obviously unhappy, something wasn't working, it's better this way, this way you both have the opportunity to be happy. Sometimes just being friends is what's best for a relationship

(don't trust what I say, I tend to end up with fuck buddys instead of partners, I'm no expert)

Originally Posted by CosmicNoodle

Thought so, exactly the same thing happened to me, but with me, they decided to cut off all contact with me and basically rip my heart out, one second it was all unicorns and flowers, next thing I know they ripped a part out of my very soul. I know what it's like (stop making this about yourself, Joe)

The best thing you can do, in my fairly inexperienced opinion, is to just say sorry, explain yourself, and then just give them time to come round, if they do at all. I'm sure he'll come to trust you in time, after all, he broke up with you.

At the end of the day,. one of you was obviously unhappy, something wasn't working, it's better this way, this way you both have the opportunity to be happy. Sometimes just being friends is what's best for a relationship

(don't trust what I say, I tend to end up with fuck buddys instead of partners, I'm no expert)

Actually, the reason he dumped me was because of my mental health (which sounds really awful, but he's only 18, and he's autistic as well, and it just got to be too much for him.) so while we could've worked out pretty well... It's just not opportune right now

But yeah, I hear ya

I don't really know you that well, but i'm always here if you need to talk.I suffer with several issues myself so I understand or at least try to.I'm going through a bad patch myself right now too, but I can listen.

Originally Posted by mai-rin

I don't really know you that well, but i'm always here if you need to talk.I suffer with several issues myself so I understand or at least try to.I'm going through a bad patch myself right now too, but I can listen.

Thank you, that means a lot

it can be heart breaking to lose a relationship, but do not give up on life. it may not seem like it now, but things can get better

Originally Posted by SethfromMI

it can be heart breaking to lose a relationship, but do not give up on life. it may not seem like it now, but things can get better

I hope so.

Originally Posted by Karkat

I hope so.

trust me, they can

Originally Posted by Karkat

Thanks for your responses guys. Just want to let you know that I'm still ok. I struggle with severe mental illness, sometimes it gets the better of me. Last night was kinda one of those nights.

Thanks for your care and concern. It means a lot

Its good to hear that you feel better now.
One will always struggle with different things in life, you just need to be strong. I know it's hard but otherwise who will do it for us?