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Old June 24th, 2007, 01:08 AM   #1
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THIS IS HOW I FELT WHEN I FELL IN LOVE FOR THE SECOND TIME IN MY LIFE...IT MAY BE MY LAST TIME DUE TO THE AMOUNT OF PAIN IT CAUSED ME.

Honestly. Love can only be described in actions. We cannot describe it in words. The closest is this: It is more powerful than a thousand lightning bolts hitting you at once. You cannot stop it. You cannot help it.

No matter how many personal standards you set four yourself, now matter what age limit you have, you cannot help but to fall in love with someone you know would be perfect. No matter how many trials you would have to work around, no matter how many difficulties, you still can't help it.

But when you are forcibly ripped from the person you love that you have just met for the first time in a year, and you are ripped 2000 miles from this person...it hurts. You feel so close to them, you want to believe that they are right next to you when you fall asleep.

You want to believe that they are with you.
You want to believe that they are thinking of you.
You want to believe things will happen quickly and you can move on to loving her more and more and more until you can finally be together.
You want to believe all of these things....

But as soon as you start believing it, reality comes to bitch slap you in the face and puts you down. It leaves you with little or no hope at all. You try to move on with your life, but you know more and more pain is coming down the road because this is not the last time you will see her.

You refuse to believe you will fall in love with her again,
But you can't help it when you stare into her beautful crystal blue eyes.
You can't help anything about it.

When you walk through the dark, you only remember on thing...the last words. The last words spoken.

The last words spoken to her were C'Ya!
She said the same to me.

I never say goodbye, because goodbye is forever, and I will see her again.
But you remember those words as if all the angels in heaven are singing a lovers requiem for you, but it makes you feel bad. It makes mee feel like I am Ghost, it makes me feel hurt, it makes me feel like dust because the only thing i hear ringning on and on in my mind is C'Ya which can be interperted a million different ways.

When will things finally work out for me?

When you finally feel like breaking down, and you cant help but get on your knees when the rain is pouring and the thunder is rolling, and the lightning is flashing lightning up the night sky, You realize one thing, hope.

It is right there in front of your face. It always has been, you just never reached for it long enough.

Tears begin to stream down your face dissapearing in the rain.
Tears mixed with sadness and joy. They all begin to combine causing mixed emotions to roll in your stomach making you sick...making you want to regret everything the world has to offer, making you want to regret falling in love in the first place.

Making you never wanting to fall in love ever again. But no matter how hard you try you cant but help it.

As you lay awake at night, gazing out your window at the full moon in which you stood under with her a month or so ago, you begin to cry yourself to sleep. You begin to question if you will ever been with her. You begin to question...if your love life is existant. You begin to question the very point of existance without her...
And then you go to sleep, and for a few hours dreams become reality.
In a few hours you dream of what you wanted to become reality.
You dream of the future.
You dream of finally being together.
You feel good.
You have the one you love in your arms.
You are talking.
You say "If It was my choice I would have never left you again. I love you so much," as you stare into those blue eyes. Then you kiss...a gentle but calm kiss...a kiss that you would never expect out of her...a kiss that has her reply in it...the reply "I love you to..."
And then you wake up.
You dread everything. You want everything to go back. You want to go back to sleep so your dream will forever hold its peace. You want to kiss her again...you want to be with her again, but no matter what, you can't help it. You are awake now. You are under the shadow of creul reality and society in which she is one of the most important people in your life but you can't say "I Love You," to her because this is the real world now and it does matter and it will affect your future. You begin to realize this one thing:

What hurts the most is having so much to say to her...but not being able to say anything at all. What hurts the most is wanting so badly to say "I Love you," to her and not being able to say anything at all.

This is how I feel when I am in love.
I am in love.
It hurts so much.
Why?
I want it to stop. I just want to be with her.
Anything...I'll do anything for her.
What hurts me the most is not saying my feelings to her.
What hurts me the most is not seeing her.
What hurts me the most is not seeing the hope in this...even though I know there is some.
This is my love story

This is my lovers requeim.

Our Love will Never Die...
I Am Ghost

What we do in life echoes in eternity.
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Old June 24th, 2007, 02:34 PM   #2
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Pain is reality. Reality is what you make it. You will be able to cope, it is life, it is unfair and cruel, but you have the power to mold it into anything. Its better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all.

request move to relationships...


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Old June 24th, 2007, 03:35 PM   #3
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Pain is reality. Reality is what you make it. You will be able to cope, it is life, it is unfair and cruel, but you have the power to mold it into anything. Its better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all.
I love your wods of wisdom! Its great so have somebody with knowledge back again!

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Old June 24th, 2007, 03:54 PM   #4
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I really almost cried reading this. You are very poetic.

I almost don't know how to reply to this, except;
It is painful, and Kolte is so right, I couldn't say it better myself. Just be very glad you have loved, think of this love as just "away" for now. I really truely hope you find her again and that you two do respond with those precious words...I for one am at a loss for words myself after reading this (this is not a bad thing).

Oh God, that's my dream...my Michael...
I almost think I feel what you are.
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Old July 3rd, 2007, 05:28 PM   #5
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it's better to have loved then lost then to never have loved at all

ps:i have no idea who said it first

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Old July 3rd, 2007, 05:32 PM   #6
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ooh sorry Kolte i skipd to posting right after i dident know u alrady said it
but hay great minds think alike

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Old July 11th, 2007, 02:45 PM   #7
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You are indeed very poetic.

I also know what its like to be roughly ejected from love.
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Old July 11th, 2007, 05:45 PM   #8
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I know the feeling. I know what its like to give all of your love to one person, just to have them disappear. I fell in love with Veronica, who lives across the ocean. she's only here for about a month a year. I spent an entire year only thinking of her. Dreaming of her. But in the end i knew that she couldn't love me in the same way. She was two young (four year difference). And it was that age difference that made me choose not to start a relationship with her when she got back. however one of my friends cousins moved in with him, and he had an obvious crush on her. He didn't like me, and i didn't like him, so he started talking to Veronica about me, and because she was so young she was easily manipulated. All her friends became cold to me, and i stopped going over to see her. Her last night here last year i heard her talking to him. The way they said goodnight to each other, still causes my face to grow angry. and she's here, right now. not fifty yards from me. and i cant do anything about it.

So just know, you're not alone. and thank you, it was good to know that someone else can understand how hard it is to dream of the same girl every night, and wake up crying because she's not with you.

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Old July 12th, 2007, 12:32 AM   #9
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Regardless if it is illegal or legal, age is timeless and that's what I hate about this fucking government. They have made it illegal to fall in love with someone younger than you. They classify you as a "pedophile" and a pervert. Soon you are a registered sex offender because you fell in love. You cannot help who you fall in love with...it is basic human instinct. Sometimes I think God looks down on the Government totally ashamed that they won't let someone be with someone else because they are younger.

MY DESCRIPTION OF A PEDOPHILE: Someone who has sexual relationships with someone else under the age of 18 by force or by will. Not by how they wound up in love.

The girl I fell in love with...she lives in Miami. I live in Breckenridge Colorado where we met. I saw her recently when we went down to visit. But shes 2 years and ten months younger than me. Sure it bugs me sometimes but I just tell myself its the fucking government who made me think Loving someone younger was wrong.

Our Love will Never Die...
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