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Old December 2nd, 2018, 03:22 PM   #781
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First time... I felt relieved. At that time I did not understand that it would become a habit and thought that what I was doing was normal.
I've been doing self-harm for about two years now and can't stop. I've had a lot of breaks for a couple of months, but I still keep making cuts on my body, putting out cigarettes on my hand, and stabbing it with a needle. I'm really tired of this. Your post helped me a bit, I will try to reconsider the reasons why I do it and give up this habit.

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Old December 15th, 2018, 01:28 PM   #782
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Not do it it's stupid
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Old April 4th, 2019, 04:57 PM   #783
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Cutting is absolutely terrible. So remember that I'm not saying it's good or makes sense. But some people seem confused about why people do it, so I figured I'd tell you the reasoning that went on in my brain at the time when I would do it:

1. When I did it, I would calm down when I lost blood. This was actually because I was losing blood, but in my delusional state I reasoned that the pain was a sensation that helped with the anger and felt refreshing and the flowing of my blood out of my wound represented the release of anger and all the other bad feelings I had previously held inside.

2. I was not thinking clearly and thought it was "cool" and it would make me seem "bad ass" because I was able to knowingly hurt myself bad enough to leave scars that would be there for the rest of my life and not flinch or "pu*** out" (AKA think about it).

3. I though that if I did it people would have to pay attention to me, which was something I really wanted.

4. I felt that even if something went wrong and I accidentally killed myself it wouldn't really matter because that's what I originally wanted to do before I found out I didn't have the "courage" too.

There were other factors as well but I'm typing this all on my phone and I don't want to write much about this sensitive of a topic when im not at my computer and I can't adequately explain myself and explain my reasoning while at the same time emphasizing that in hindsight it was a terrible thing too do and no one should repeat my mistake.

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Old May 9th, 2019, 07:30 AM   #784
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Was quite strange actually.

At first, because of anxiety I guess, I was just used to stick my nails in my arm, so strongly it would leave marks. One day, I started using my teeth, when I had panics attak. I bit myself so hard, those were the firts marks that stayed several days. The next step for my, was in the bathroom, I found a tweezer and planted it in my arm. Well, after I passed from the tweezer to the thumbtack, from the thumbtack to the compass, from the compass to the scissors, and from the scissors to the blade. It was so Strange. I didn't realized what I was doing untill I bled the first time. And didn't see it as something serious or even important before. But when I realized, it was too late. I am now obsessed with the feeling of the marks on my arm. I'm feeling wrong when it's too smooth. I need to pass my fingers on my arm and feel scars. Or I feel bad. I'm addicted to the pain. It's the only thing that calms my panicks attacks and my anxiety. When I'm dead crying, and can't sleep, I need my blade. I never sleep better than when I feel the pain on my arm. I never thought I would end like this really, it's quite funny. When I was 13, I had a friend that self-harmed. Oh man, I was dead worried, I thought of scorifications as Something so so terrible. So funny I ended up like this. Life's pretty ironic sometimes.

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Old May 16th, 2019, 10:44 PM   #785
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I have only done it one time right after my dog died of cancer. I honestly don't know what I was trying to accomplish but now I have a few scars on me and I regret it
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