what the hell is wrong with me?

i feel like i need to self harm even tho ive never done so (cutting, drugs, etc...) not only that violence makes me happy the image of me shooting someone infront of the whole school and more but i dont want to think this fucked up shit.
i cant pay attention in class these thoughts pallute my mind i feel evil and hate myself.
why i mean WHY! do i feel like self harm is a good thing is this a mental illness of some kind? because it should be

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Don't know if there is a medical term for what your feeling and I don't exactly have those thoughts most of the time but the time that I do, I just remind myself that it is wrong and I shouldn't manifest them physically. It's kinda therapeutic thinking about them and I guess it helps us visualize and experience those in our heads so that we don't just do them spontaneously.

Maybe you are so disgusted at yourself for those thoughts that you feel the need to punish yourself. Maybe, inorder to save others you feel the need to harm yourself instead of them. I imagine these thoughts are quite common though. Try writing a story about your violent thoughts just to get them out of your head. I'd also suggest you stay away from the self harm forum. Self injury thoughts need to be reduced before they turn into action.

Heres a link to the announcement. Read this.
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/an....php?f=16&a=52

problem was bored and deppresed in class today and of course scissors
i gave myself minor cuts but i know that leads to more and it felt good which i know is normal now im worried how to cover them up in gym there really noticeable and we have short sleeves ive created a problem

this might get moved to self harm now...