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Old September 16th, 2011, 04:45 PM   #1
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So I know this seems kinda strange, but whatever.

Does anyone else have 'fears' while cutting, or even when not? It can be anything.. hitting a vein, whatever..

For me.. I'm afraid of running out of space on my arms.. I know that probably seems like a dumb thing to be afraid of, but I love cutting on my arms more than any other place on my body, and I fear that one day, there won't be any space left, and I don't know what I'll do.

I used to be afraid of cutting a vein.. but that kinda went away..

Just curious if anyone else has 'fears'.

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Old September 16th, 2011, 05:09 PM   #2
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Think I can kinda relate to what you're saying. Guess one of my "fears" is the same, about running out of room. I've been off and on about hitting a vein though. Sometimes I'm terrified I'll do some damage like that... then I almost welcome it at others. Then sometimes I fear I won't be able to tolerate the pain that would give me the result/depth I'm aiming for.
And I guess more as a result of cutting, I'm afraid of being caught.

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Old September 16th, 2011, 05:16 PM   #3
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For me, I'm just scared of hitting that vein. :/
But I hardly do it anymore, if so, not as often, but if you need someone to talk to, I'll be here *hugs*
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Old September 16th, 2011, 05:34 PM   #4
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I never really feared about hitting a vein... even though everyone in treatment reminded me of that possibility. I still don't worry about that. If it kills me, oh well, if it doesn't, okay. It's kind of screwed up that it's like that.

I guess any fears I have would be of getting caught. Missing a spot of blood on the tile, forgetting to hide my blade, something like that.
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Old September 16th, 2011, 06:02 PM   #5
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I'm always afraid that my scars will fade. They are starting to and I feel like I need to make new ones.
Not really afraid of hitting a vein. I don't care anymore

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Old September 16th, 2011, 09:59 PM   #6
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I'm afraid of getting caught. I'm afraid my scars will never go away, since I'm trying to quit. I don't want to look back on them a few years from now with regret.

I don't cut my arms due to the fear of being caught. I have no long sleeved clothes other than a white hoodie, so not really cut-hiding material... I wish I could cut my arms...
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Old September 17th, 2011, 07:27 PM   #7
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For me, I suppose that i'm kind of also fear that i will run out of space on my arms and i'm the same, I like cutting on my arms compared to anywhere else. Originally I was afraid of hitting a vein but that thought has just about gone and now I just think if it happens...it happens. I'm also afraid that I will get caught by someone, anyone.

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Old September 18th, 2011, 02:42 PM   #8
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scared of hitting a main vein or parents finding out. :S xx

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I am fearful of myself, because I know one day I will go too far. Im scared of hospitals so that really isn't an option for me.


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Old September 19th, 2011, 05:06 PM   #10
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I'm scared of going to far one day. Cutting to deep and not being able to get help.

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Old September 20th, 2011, 03:30 AM   #11
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Aah, thanks guys, glad to know I'm not the only one. (:

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Old September 20th, 2011, 04:31 AM   #12
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Yeah, although i haven't done it in a while I would always fear if i hit a major vein and it pouring out and I couldn't stop it. Also it would leave a nice big mark and i don't want people to see that.


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Old September 20th, 2011, 10:27 AM   #13
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I'd have to say ending up in A&E, because that means I have to have awkward conversations with doctors and my parents etc.

I'm also terrified of people at school seeing my scars, but that's kind of a given.
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Old September 22nd, 2011, 04:07 PM   #14
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i am afraid of my scars fading. theyre a part of me and as much as i hate what they represent i feel alone without them. x
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Old September 23rd, 2011, 11:11 AM   #15
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i am afraid of my scars fading. theyre a part of me and as much as i hate what they represent i feel alone without them. x
I agree with this. I'm always afraid some of my biggest scars will fade. It's sick but, hey, gotta have something. My scars keep me from cutting again, often times.

I've only gotten scared of hitting a vein once and that was only because I had never cut so deep before. But that passed after the first time.

I'm often times afraid that a new relationship (With friends, males, whatever) is going to make me give up cutting forever. I've never had to, not yet. I've stopped for months at a time but always with the promise of starting again as soon as the relationship is over (Sick, again, I know). But I'm someone who doesn't want to just stop. I'd rather know I can when I need to then know I can't when I have to.

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