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Old March 20th, 2011, 08:51 PM   #1
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Name: Natalie
Join Date: May 16, 2009
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Default It's like you're my fucking little sister.

"You're a horrible child."
"How about you stop being such a nasty cow?"
"Horrible. Horrible. Child."
"Ew you freak, go and get me that bag now."
"Horrible child with spazzy feet."
"In a better mood are we?" (patronizing tone)
"Aww. Want me to rub your belly, seeing as it's that time of the month and it might stop it hurting" (patronizing tone)
"Gonna get your arse slapped if you carry on."

She's so childish, it drives me insane. This, however, is nothing compared to the day to day abuse I'd get off my father. Difference is, I was numb to that, it stopped hurting, nothing is hurting me more than this.
She left this morning, called me a horrible child.
Gave me my tea, said the nasty cow comment, purely because I asked her to stop talking so loudly because I had a headache,
the others just fitted in accordingly.
I took myself to bed after the nasty cow comment, everything just got brought back up, everything hurt. I momentarily started crying, but as always I can't cry properly, it only lasted a few seconds before she came in and I had to bury myself in my covers and pretend to be asleep so she wouldn't see. I then actually fell asleep, woke up with urges from hell, and had no idea what to do with myself.
It's not even that bad, it just hurts. She giggles and laughs the more upset I get, provokes me when I'm clearly not in the mood, taunts me and does anything she can to get at me. She knows I hate physical contact, then is shocked when I retaliate when she approaches me with her hand.
I don't understand. I want her to grow up. I feel like I spend my time looking after my little sister instead of being looked after by my mother.
I'm no angel, I mouth off back sometimes, I snap, I cry, I lash out, but it's all because I can't take it anymore.
She's like this with who she thinks I am, how's she going to be when she finds out I'm just a depressed nervous wreck? I'll just be a freak.
I feel like I might aswell just go back home, back there, back to where I was stupid, it's never going to go away, it's always going to haunt me. There's always something or someone there to remind me what useless excuse of an accidental human being I am. I don't want this kind of abuse to start properly again. I don't want to feel like that again. I want to move away from her, move away from all this. I want to move where I feel safe. Even a week away at a friends house would make such a huge difference, even a night. I just need to get away from these words. I need to escape this pain.

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Old March 21st, 2011, 09:41 PM   #2
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Default Re: It's like you're my fucking little sister.

You know, i actually encourage running away. Its like sending a flare into the air when you are lost in the sea. If you are lucky, someone may see it, if you are not, well, it wont get worse. But please get a solid plan before running away, and i mean REAL SOLID like where to go, and where to go if something happens to option A.

Give it a deep thought, and good luck if you choose to go ahead with this.

Josh.

Those who mind, dont matter, and those who matter, dont mind.
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Old March 22nd, 2011, 02:55 AM   #3
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Default Re: It's like you're my fucking little sister.

Running away, now I haven't tried that one since I was about nine years old. As much as that does sound quite appealing, I don't have anywhere to go, so yeah. I don't really want to distress the rest of my family (well my Grandma) over her, thanks for replying.

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Old March 23rd, 2011, 12:12 PM   #4
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Default Re: It's like you're my fucking little sister.

Yeah i'd strongly discourage running away. it's something I do a lot and well... it's only ever ended up with police, parents or teachers after me. Never solved anything.

You brought hate, pills and knives,
And this is how the tale begins.
Its your life, exist and wonder why.
When it only fails to work,
It only fails to work sometimes
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