You know, I'm just like you. Or I was. You should do what I do and convert your rage into a different forum (Not like the forum I'm talking on.). When I'm pissed (frequently am) I write about it or play the drums for a few hours. You could take up drums or boxing, you know, something to take your rage out with. You don't have to be unhappy. In time you'll learn to turn your deepest hate into such an amazing love of life.