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Old May 18th, 2010, 09:35 PM  
Zeh Crazy
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Join Date: May 16, 2010
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Default Re: Read this -> What is Anorexia Nervosa and Bulimia

I have struggled with being overweight all my life. When I hit 7th grade, I started doing very strict diets...It took me 2 years to lose 40 pounds...Eating 300 calories a day. This year, I gained back every single pound and more...I am so ashamed of myself. Sometimes I will go without eating a thing for 3 days and then I'll binge for a week. I hate myself. I hate my body. I will never be thin. So everyday I fail, I always tell myself I won't eat for a couple of days and sometimes I can pull it off. Starving, in some masochistic form, makes me feel strong, lithe, invincible. I love that feeling. It makes me feel great, like I have self-discipline...until the next day when my body is shaking, I'm about to dry heave, and I am so...so hungry. I just hate myself so much when I give in...I die inside.
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