my father got drunk every night from the time I was born to the time I was 11 years old.
I know all about alcohol.
Thats probably half the reason why you binge drunk. Sure you enjoy it, but why did you start? Because you learnt from your dad that was what you are sopposed to do? Possibly, possibly you just wanted to. Either way it doesn't really matter. The "in your own home" law does make a big difference.