Re: I Don't Know Myself...
You do have a purpose in life buddy, you shouldn't be scared of yourself. Those bullies/racist jerks are just covering up their problems by effecting someone elses problems. Don't let them get to you, I'm sure lots of people care about you at school, at home, anywhere. Whenever they make you enraged with anger, just think. Why are they doing this? Because they have issues themselves. You never did anything to them, so why should you pay the price? I know I hate this as much as any other teen, but you should tell an adult immediately if you haven't already. Things like that could drive people to their suicide, and I'd hate to have someone die over a bunch of racist jerks. If you really want help, go hunting, shoot a gun, release your anger out on a tree, the river, whatever. Don't let that anger build up inside, or you might have a nervous breakdown. I will say this only once, try turning it against them, whenever I have a bully pick on me I always turn the tables. Ask them what their problem is, what's so bad that they would pick on you. What was so damn horrible that they would have to hurt someone else? Don't let fury stay inside you. let it out at the people you despise in a non-violent way. Good luck buddy, I hope you work this all out.