Wow, that was pretty deep. There's not much advice I can give since addictions are pretty tough. To be completely honest I've never heard on an ecstacy addiction (only people building up tolerences so they need to take more and more to get what they desire) so I'm assuming hat this is psycological rather than physical. I'm not saying that it's not serious though so plese dont assume that. My advice would be to either take a placebo and see if that helps or call a support line who may be able to help.
Sorry I cannot give more advice but this is a difficult situation.
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