First of all, you are not a hypocrite.
And you can beat it. I think you're probably tired of hearing that because you think you can't, and I don't know you so well, and I don't know how you're feeling, but I know that you can beat it and I trust you. I love you and I care for you, and I will be here for you if you need me.
I will pray for you and think of you. I am not with you in body but I am in mind. Remember that there'll always be a next chance, and that everyone is willing to give you that chance. You can fall, and that is not a shame, but get back up again. Please. Get back up and look up. There's the sky, and at night there will be stars. Remember those stars.
Pretend that the sky is the mirror of the earth, and all those stars are the reflections of people. And the brightest star above you, that is your reflection. You do shine.
And everyone, don't give up, because there'll always be something. Something that makes life happy and worth all the pain you went trough.
OnlyByTheNight (I'm sorry I don't know your name), you deserve to be happy. You deserve everything you need, everything you want., and so much more. You really do.