I'm about like you are as fart as having no social skills. My dad never even calls me any more.
And I tried to kill myself. It sucked but I woke up after three days in a coma. From there I went to a mental hospital. No fun there either.
Look most of the members here are alot like you. No social status, etc, etc.
All you have to do is hang in there one day at a time. And you need to get help with meds to help you throuth this time. I take anti depressement and it works for me. You need the help that only a shrnik doctor can give you.