you just sound like you are afraid of being gay. From what you say, it sounds to me like your straight. You cannot be gay and not be attracted to men. Thats not how it works. Just because you worry doesnt mean that you are. Plus the only person who can really tell you the truth about it is yourself and if you think you are straight then you are straight.
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