Hey, I know the feeling and it's okay.
Maybe you could try a henna tattoo kit. You put it on, leave it on overnight and the next day you can pick it off the same way you would a scab. It also leaves a redish mark behind. I've never tried it, but a friend told me about it and maybe that'll help?
But to be honest, I still haven't figured how to get past that point. But I can listen if you ever need anything. Anything at all.