I hate my gayness
Since recently, the whole thinking of alex is off, as you know, he is nothing but a hot guy in my class who I once had feelings for.
But the time I would spend stareing into him, is now spent thinking of my gayness.
My friends call me gay for joked. I usually play along but it isnt until after the joke is said and done, its when it gets to me. If I say it before they get going, or lke if I go "Thats not funny", they go, "O But it is funny other times" I just hate it
Then half way through speaking I realise how gay I am sounding, and thenn I realise the way I'm standing or something. Its like, K I am looking very gay now.
I really really hate it