Re: Self Harm Calendar
20 slashes across my left arm.
All the way up. My fucking arm is covered in huge bright red cuts.
I'm so ashamed.
I have to go to school like this tomorrow, and it doesn't help that it's really hot weather over here right now. I'm going to HAVE to wear a long sleeved sweater or something over them. I HAVE TO!!!!
You have no idea how BAD it looks. Honestly. There's lots of big cuts ALL the way up my arm. Even my mum saw and she screamed at me "YOUR ARM IS SO UGLY!" and she threatened so send me to a mental hospital, and have me locked up in the attic for months and to send me to the mentally disabled department at school everyday instead of my normal classes. I'm not even going to bother repeating the whole drama episode...
Now my whole arm burns and all I can do is just enjoy the burning for now.
Until tomorrow, I'm going to have a hell of a time trying to hide them.
I'm sick and ashamed of what I've done.
I'm an absolute moron and a total waste of a human being.
DON'T convince me any different, because that's just not the way it is.
"I can't judge any of you. I have no malice against you and no ribbons for you. But I think that it is high time that you all start looking at yourselves, and judging the lie that you live in." ~ Charles Manson