That is great that you have decided to get some help with this Rudi! Im really glad things are getting better for you!
I agree with what Patch said, one of the hardest parts are over.
And he's right, you do need to try and be honest with your mum.
Im so pleased that you have managed to talk to her about it, that is such an achievement and I really do hope you get the help you need with this.
Hang in there sweetie!