Originally Posted by lolly_manson
VCSCjosie, I only have Anorexia and Bulimia for an year and I`ve tried to recover so many times and I understand you. I`ve read that even if you recover from an ED you`ll always want to get back, `cause it`s an addiction... it`s like drugs. And once you`ve been brain-washed by Anorexia, even if you eat well, you have the mental illnes for the whole life. I think that if you were strong enough to recover, you`ll have the courage to continue this way. Just keep telling yourself that you feel much better this way, think of things that have changed in your life and have made you happier after you recovered and most importantly - keep telling yourself that you`ve had the courage to recover once and you`ll never ever be blinded again, `cause you`re so much more than a stupid diet and an obsession
it is like an addiction.
i feel high and empty and happy and giddy when i don't eat,
so i continuously seek to get that feeling again.
i have tried many times to change my thoughts and behaviours to eat like a 'normal person,' but i always fail.
and that scares me.