My religion is hazy now. Like, its hard to stay close to what you believe with everything luring you away from it. In my town, there are no youth directed programs that suit me and help me in my faith. Like, its a tiny town with no oppurtunity it grow in my faith. I define myself as Christian yet don't think as one. I call myself faithful, yet thats the opposite of what i feel. Its complex. I yearn to grow closer to God. (Do not insult me on this) Yet I find it difficult to keep myself faithful. I don't care who you are, being faithful without support is damn near impossible.