dude i know EXACTLY what you're going through. you want to tell her how you feel so badly, but you want to cling onto that one feeling of love you have for her, and keep it forever. you dont want her rejection to stop that feeling. youd do anything to keep it. believe me, ive felt that way so many times. you just have to learn that there will be others. btw, if you read my topic on this board, you'll see what im talking about. it sounds pretty much exactly the same as your story.
here it is: