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Old December 14th, 2017, 09:41 PM   #769
Name: Noah
Join Date: September 23, 2016
Location: Australia
Gender: Male
Default Re: First Time Cutting

When was the first time you cut yourself? I had just turned 12, if I'm remembering right.
What did it feel like the first time you cut yourself? This might sound really stupid but it hurt. It really fucking hurt. It hurt enough that I didn't have to think about all the things that made me want to self harm in the first place. It was like the perfect distraction. For a few minutes I wasn't thinking about the problems in my life, I was just focused on the pain.
What was going through your head at the time? "Ok, here we go, here we go. What if this doesn't work? What if I do this and nothing happens? What if nothing changes. Ok I'm just gonna do it.... Oh wow, oh fuck that hurts, oh my god that hurts so bad holy shit... Wow, that actually worked, i should do this again." and so began an addiction
that would take 2 year to curb.

I was just really thinking about all the problems I faced in my life, and how overwhelming and gigantic they felt.
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