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Old September 22nd, 2017, 05:00 AM   #5
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Default Re: I just want to let it out..

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Originally Posted by Emily_ View Post
So recently I've been really depressed and upset because things aren't going to well. I do have people to talk to about my depression but sometimes I just can't because they don't reply or I think I'll upset them..ALOT.

I've self harmed a lot recently because everyone just seems mad at me and I just feel like shit because I don't have the guts to say what I want to do or what I want. So if I get in a fight, and I am right, I'll just accept being shouted at and self harm later. Yes I do get really upset, but its gotten to the point were I just let people hurt me.

Sometimes I get into a fight with my boyfriend or family, they do say "omg I'm so sorry, I didn't mean that", later, but it still hurt me. I love you so much, I show you so much love, yet they repay me like this.

This might sound like I'm only thinking about myself but I think it's time I do. Please give me advice on what I should do...
I suffer from a lot of the same things, I understand where you're coming from if you want to talk sometime. Otherwise, yes, it's time to think of yourself and your needs first. It's good that you have people to talk to to some extent. It's one of the hardest parts of trying to get out of depression because people like us just can't find the energy to stand up for ourselves. I know my parents just refused to believe I had something wrong and now that they know, they're afraid of me getting medication I probably need tbh. Regardless of all the BS, you have to stand up for yourself and take the treatment and compassion you deserve. You've suffered enough and hurt yourself enough, force yourself out of your comfort zone and talk to a counselor, nurse, or teacher if you can't find anyone else. Preferably a doctor if one's available.

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