I've become of the opinion that my friendship with my ex and another one of my friends has reached an irrettievable position. We all fell out really badly a few months ago, it was really messy and confusing. We all had a hard time when our friend drowned and I fear this has contributed to our distance and break up as friends.
I wish that things could go back to how they were before when we all remotely resembled happy people. But the world doesnt work like that and I accept it. It's just hard seeing them both every day and our other friends are finding it difficult because they, quite rightly, aren't taking sides.