I didint think it would hurt this much. I knew it was going to hurt, but not this bad. I really don't feel im in the right place. It's scary. It's like being lost at the mall when your 7. I was histercially crying 3 times, and convinced 2 times I wouldn't let myself get on the plane. I've found where i belong, I've found where I'm welcome, I've found where I'm accepted, and all my parents have to say to it is: "maybe in 5 years". It is just so frustrating having it dangling right there infront of your face and not being able to reach it. I can't stand it.