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Old January 3rd, 2016, 12:42 PM  
HunterDaniels
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Name: Daniel
Join Date: January 1, 2016
Location: Massachusetts USA
Age: 14
Gender: Male
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I first knew I liked boys when I was like 7 years old.
I use to watch a show called The Suite Life of Zack and Cody on the Disney channel. I use to think they were cute and I had a dream that I was kissing them! Lol
I had lots of little crushes like that on celebrities. But it was more serious when I was 10yo and we went to stay in Maine for 3 weeks at our cottage. I met this kid named Owen who was 12. He told me he was gay. I never met anyone that was gay before. We hung out everyday for 2 weeks and one day he asked me if I knew I was gay. I told him I wasn't. But he kept saying I was. He said he could tell that I was.
We talked for a long time and finally I realized he was right. He asked me if I ever kissed a boy or did other things with boys and I told him no. He said he would fool around with me if I wanted to.
I DID WANT TO!
But I was too scared. I just said No that's okay. And he said that's ok you should only do it if you're ready.
Now it's 3 years later and whenever I think about it I wish I said yes! Lol
But it's ok cuz I was only 10 and still innocent and stuff. He gave me his email and we sent emails for a couple months after but we never talk anymore.
I still can look him up on Facebook but he's so different now.

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Originally Posted by Aidoon123 View Post
Lol, my coming out was a weird situation.

So I was going out with a girl for like a year, and then during that time I was kinda starting to fancy other guys, but I didn't think much of it, blamed it on "curiosity and hormones" yeah, aha, I used that old excuse....

So over time I dated multiple other girls, and just wasn't really enjoying the experience that much, and that's when gay porn and flirting with guys started to happen. So for a while I labelled myself as curious, and then I jumped to the next stepping stone, bisexual. So for a while I was "bisexual" and all was fine, I convinced myself I still liked girls, and liked guys on the side. So I continued with this for a year, and told my close friends. Over this time, I grew way further away from liking women, to liking men. I was determined I wasn't gay, and I was bi. How wrong was I..... Anyway, I was out as "bi" to my close friends and things were going "fine" like that for a while. Then one night I was talking with a friend, and we were on the topic of my sexuality for whatever reason, and he just straight up said to me "I know you're gay, why don't you just admit it" and of course I got angry, and battled him about this for well over 2 hours on FB, and we both cooled down and he said it again, and behind my computer screen something inside me clicked.... I was hiding my real self for so damn long, and it hurt me each day. I broke down. Majorly, broke down. I began to well up and I just burst into uncontrollable sobbing. I just said yes to him. Yes, yes, yes. It had been in front of my eyes since I was probably 12 or 13 and I couldn't admit it to myself until I was 16. For years, it just tore away at me. I chuckle looking back on this time now, how naive I was, and how I tried to convince myself I was "normal", but since coming out I've realised this is who I have always been, the real me, the NORMAL me. I lived a lie far too long, and it took a toll. Since coming out, I've been so much happier with myself. I've been true and honest, and a weight has been lifted from me. My advice to anyone who is struggling with their sexuality, screw what anyone else thinks. Be yourself, be true and be happy!! You won't regret it, and it'll hurt you far less than the pain of lying to youself for years.
This is a good story. I think this could be a lot of people's story. It goes like this for a lot of gayness from what I read on other message boards and stuff.
Isn't it weird how other people know you're gay before you do?! Lol
You've heard about "gaydar"? (Gay radar)
I def have it and there's a friend of mine that I'm soooo sure is gay but he still says he's straight. He's always sad and never had a girlfriend. It's so obvious to me. I want really bad to confront him because I think he would feel better if he came to terms with who he is. But I just won't do it. I'm to afraid I would lose him as a friend.

Posts merged. Please use the 'edit' button next time. aNdMoRe~

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