Re: Non Self Harm Calendar!
Kindred souls, huh? I actually found a place that sells their pan forte around Christmas time here in NYC! I love Siena. I have many happy memories from there.
I think there's nothing unique about this place for you, Elliot, eventhough I acknowledge it's specialness for you. YOU have made it that way, you were able to make this place what it means for you, it's of entirely your creation. You can do it out there, in the real world, too. The same abilities and skills (and success) is available to you. Make that happen, and the cutting and unhappiness will be things from your past.
Just get out of your own head long enough to see what everyone else thinks of you. It is very much different (unfortunately) than the dialogue you have with yourself.