Originally Posted by iluvash
ok i feel soo bad right now i want to do some old habits but im holding myself back.
this is all coming at me at one time i hate this all i have soo much stress with the team breaking up losing friends.. missing ashley and knowing shes not here and never will when she says she will but i can tell shes not!
i just dont want to be here anymore.. if i could choose i would leave and start life all over again i hate it!
Well this just explains that you're 100% human, You're going to want to go back and change things, everyone does. But You can get through this, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, sometimes you just have to find it.