Re: Non Self Harm Calendar!
5 months and 3 days cut free. it's become a day to day thing again. it was at one point a week to week thing where i didn't have to worry as much but right now it almost a minute to minute thing. i want to relapse SO bad. i tell other when they relapse that they just need to pick themselves up and stop again. so me and my distorted mind is logically thinking just one cut...one cut and then i'll never do it again. just one more to say good bye forever. i know perfectly well that it doesn't work like that and that i'm thinking like a true addict. but i just want to so bad. if i start again i may never stop and then i'll have nothing. i know that i'm strong but its just SO hard to keep myself strong.