Wow youre doing really well. I know what you mean about the security blanket thing i do the same thing i need to keep pills and blades just so i know theyre there. Im not planning to do anything stupid but its good to know theyre there. Keep it up you have done really well not to cut for so long. Everyones here if you need to talk. Dont go back to it you know yourself its not worth it. I dont mean to sound like a hypocrite saying dont cut when i do but im trying to stop.