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Old March 28th, 2008, 08:03 PM  
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Name: Heather, Duh.
Join Date: March 29, 2004
Location: The Sunshine State.
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I have this habit of pushing everyone away, I will hold someone close for a little bit and then slowly let them go. I build these walls up so thick so people give up before even approaching me. Sometimes I think I'm protecting myself, but from what? The world? Is not as scary as I make it out to be. Yet still that doesn't change a thing. Because of that I am constantly lonely, that's become my state of normal. In a way I don't believe anyone would care to see me, so I stop it there so they don't even stand a chance. I feel like I am subconsciously starting to push Ben away, we seem like we are drifting, and that is always my fault. It worries me. I don't know how to bring him closer, and if I do that, would he want to stay? I wouldn't if I was him.

Tonight I feel lonelier than lonely.

“Some days even my lucky rocketship underpants won't help.”
-Calvin & Hobbes.

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