Aww, heather..its so great to see you. i never talk to you anymore, but i love reading your posts. you shouldn't feel bad about the Ben situation though--although its understandable why really--. Someone as great as you has made an impact on his life as much as he has on yours. the kids probably live in a safer environment without fighting and ill eventually appreciate you if they dont already now (i know i would!).
you are a great person and don't forget it.