I agree (^)
"but it doesn't give me the results I need."
I don't believe you NEED those results. You can do something else that will give the same kind of results. You can write, draw, sing, talk here with all of us, something to help you get it all out without there being any type of harm. People here do care and we are here to help.
Hang in there.
---Also, welcome to VT.