Re: Could I be bi-polar? :(
Labels are only useful to the professionals that treat you. It gives them the 'language' to communicate what's wrong with you, and therefore be more specific with the treatment. It's useless for us to speculate on what you might have. We cannot treat you.
You DO sound really unhappy, though, regardless of the cause. That's enough of a reason to find a good therapist who can actually diagnose you and treat you so you can feel better. This idea that shrinks are 'useless' or they 'make things worse' is a lousy justification for not getting help. we know you're looking for help, that's why you're here. Now, find someone who can make you feel better.