Re: Is this OCD related
No, no, not autism. that's a lack of verbal communication abilities and no social abilities. Not you.
The thing about true OCD (as differentiated from, say, being very anxious, or conscientious, etc.), is that the sufferer is driven by whatever the thoughts and behaviors are. They are tormented by them, they cannot control them at all, and they are really irrational.
If that sounds like you (and if there's a family history of OCD or mental illness) in your family, tell someone and see a doc. The good news about OCD is that there are now very effective treatments for it.