Re: im stupid
No it's not strange.
I used to take unused shaving razors and cut with them. It would take forever to break them open my hands would be shaking every time and at the end I'd have tons of little cuts on my fingers from breaking it open.
But you just gotta pick it back up and continue with your eight weeks.
You can overcome this.
“Some days even my lucky rocketship underpants won't help.”
-Calvin & Hobbes.