Re: Non Self Harm Calendar!
I think I've cheated. Yesterday I was putting together my brother desk, and two blades were in the box, for the sliding drawers. Since it had been just over three months of not cutting, it was really hard to resist, but I kind of did, to some extent. I placed them in the desk but whilst the two blades stuck out my leg went past and it made two lines of blood appear on my leg, just under the kneecap. I didn't do anything to stop it, I just let it bleed, and...it felt great. Because of that, I'm not sure whether this is day 0 or day 55. My head is full of fuck. But I'll go ahead and say day 55. I hope you guys forgive me. Did I fuck up?