Re: my destiny?
No one is destined to commit suicide. We are all destined to encounter difficulties which we will struggle to overcome. But no one is meant to kill themselves.
Just because you have OCD like one of the shooters does not mean that you will turn out the same way. Just because you are struggling right now does not mean you are destined to commit horrific crimes either.
As Anthony said, create a purpose for yourself. Be it striving to get a certain career, helping those less fortunate than yourself or supporting, laughing with and spending time with friends and family. Find something positive you believe to be worthwhile and throw yourself into it.
~ The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step ~
* Nothing in the world has ever been accomplished without passion *