Mate, you sound pretty much exactly where I am right now. The weed is really starting to take over and I don't know if I want to let it.
I have to smoke everyday, somehow I manage it every day. I can't remember the last day I went without having a few joints at least.
I forget things like what I did just a few days ago, time seems to blend together, I stumble with words. Its bad.
Its so interwound with everything I do, all my friends are massive stoners, my girlfriends starting to do it more often now because shes with me so much, at college half the people there are stoners.
I don't want to stop, but I don't want weed to play this much of a part in my life.
I do other shit too, but no addiction developing yet.