Puberty101 is a good place for this!
That doesn't sound pathetic at all, and I don't think there's anything wrong with you! You sound like a more romantic guy than the average jock
It could be a phase or just an interest, or you could be a little lonely, I feel like that too sometimes.
Tho you sound like a nice guy that's into a bit of romance or just likes movies like that. So am I (I'm a guy)
When I get a boyfriend, I'd rather cuddle with him than pound his ass.