Another 'Am I gay?' thread
I've been getting some curious feelings lately. I even watched a gay porn while I was masturbating, but the orgasm wasn't as intense as watching a straight porn. One time I even came faster to the gay porn than to the straight porn.. After the "gay" masturbation session I felt unsatisfied, awkward and sometimes disgusted. I wouldn't say I actually achieved an orgasm with the gay porn, but I seem to always achieve an orgasm with the straight porn. Correct me if I'm wrong but people can come but still not feel an orgasm... right? Because of that, I don't think I'm gay. I mean I've liked girls, looking at them, masturbating to them, etc. but all of a sudden on rare occasions like a every couple of weeks, I get an urge to do some gay like jerk off to a gay porno. I don't know why, since I don't enjoy it and especially since I think male anal sex is disgusting.
Another weird feeling is I've found some men to be attractive... attractive enough to give me an erection, but not more attractive than a woman. Sometimes my mind will tell me that a certain girl is attractive but when I look at a certain guy I get an erection to the guy instead of to the girl I just thought was attractive. Ive never fantasized about doing anything sexual with them (men) because as I said above I find that very disgusting and gross. Its never been someone at school or in my real life just someone on TV or in a movie and the list isn't huge just a small handful. Although I fantasize about girls (in my life & not in my life like tv/movie) all the time wether or not it gives me an erection.
Also due to curiosity I recently tried anal masturbation. I didn't really enjoy it but my penis did have a little erection, not a full one though. In fact just looking back on it makes me feel quite awkward and uncomfortable. I probably wont try it again because afterwards I feel very gross and nasty. Is that even normal for 13-15 year old boys to be trying?
Does any of that mean that I could be gay? Maybe I'm just scaring myself and over thinking the situation.
Last edited by lonelyboy15; June 15th, 2007 at 03:55 PM.