Thread: Is this it?
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Old June 13th, 2007, 09:56 AM  
Evrythng_im_not's Forum Picture
Join Date: February 25, 2007
Location: 513
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Unhappy Is this it?

I post in this alot. many of you know me and have either helped me, or called me out on being something I'm not. I'm not lying or seeking attention. But I just want to know... is this it? I'm scared. Since I was fourteen (I'm seventeen, almost eighteen now) I've been a cutter. I love it and i crave it. It seems like it's the only way to make things right anymore. I upset someone, and I cut. Someone upsets me, and I cut. I get stressed out, or sad, or anything... and I cut. Is this it? Is this what my life is going to be like forever. Someone told me how chemically burn myself... I've started doing that now, too. I don't know anymore... this is it... isn't it? This is going to be my life... full of scars and blood...

Celia... I know you're going to read this. I know you're going to be upset. I'm sorry my love.

Now that we're done, I'm so sorry
Why did I lie, I'm so sorry
I know I hurt you
I know I hurt you
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