Hun, I am sorry for your loss. I know how hurt you are feeling. Believe me it will take a long while until you feel like you can move on. I had my best friend commit suicide. I still haven't got over the fact that he did it, and I will never truely get over it. But, life doesn't stop just because one person dies. You need to make an effort to keep living, especially in a time of emotional chaos. Make a promise to yourself that you will always remember her. Good luck. If you need to talk please feel free to PM me. STAY SAFE!