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Old November 2nd, 2011, 01:25 AM   #5
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Default Re: Just throwing it out there

I completely understand where you're coming from. I've trained myself to react the way people want and expect me to. I say what I know I should, not necessarily what I really think or believe.

It can be a good thing, at times, but if you do it much too often, like we do, you lose yourself. Nothing you say or do seems to be real anymore and when it perhaps, is, you don't know if it is. I'm sure you understand what I mean. It's difficult, being genuine.

I think, if I dropped my act, my face would be simply blank and emotionless. I just really don't feel much. Perhaps all I feel is a deep, heavy sadness. But it's been so neglected, I really don't feel much.

This is something you need professional help with. It takes time, patience and effort to learn to react naturally again, but it -is- possible. Good, luck sweetheart!

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