Bri, you can do this!
You know that I went five months without it right, last month I fucked all that up and believe me, I regretted it. I felt like the lowest piece of shit around. I know it doesn't seem like it but the feeling will pass, and you can overcome it. You're a fighter, even though right now I know you don't feel like one.
Peter will freak out, because he likes you, because he wouldn't want to see you hurting. Talk to him, so he can understand and maybe it'll help get things off your chest. He's there for you.
Bri, I love ya hun, you know that. I hope things clear up, and the feeling goes away. But think of it as that, a feeling, that's all. I don't want to see you back like this. You're too strong wasting time with this.
Hang in there!