for all anorexics out there
i don't want people to hurt themselves
or kill themselves
just to be something as stupid as thin
(now i'm sounding hypocritical)
but i mean really
would i wish what i've gone through
on anyone else?
i sure wouldn't and it scares me how close
i really came.
it hurts me too, how much i hurt my family
how every night
my mother would check to make sure i was still breathing
and cry herself to sleep knowing that i might not make it through the night
it scares me.
our fucking media is so focused on thiness
that we lose ourselves in the quest
the quest to be a stick figure
what a stupid quest
why not something better
like finding a cure for AIDS
or ending world hunger
we must focus on how good the movie stars look today
or oh my gosh
what they did
but even how scared it made me
and how fucking thin it made me
you never made me happy
and it never will.