Re: It's getting worse.
Even though you said they would see you as "sub-human" and "imperfect", your best bet is to tell them. See your therapist and bring them to a session and have him/her talk to them about what is going on. If they hear it from the doctor instead of you, maybe they'll see that this is a real problem that needs medication and professional help. Im sorry I cant be of more help than this, but this is really your only option. You need to get some medication to help get this under control.
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