Re: Holy crap
do they not approve of the school you applied to or something? the headaches could be from stress, which sounds like you have some, but sometimes our emotions come out as physical problems (i.e. stomach aches, headaches, etc) so it could be that too. why do you worry so much and think that you're a failure? what's going on there? being depressed is like having multiple symptoms for 2 or more weeks. if you haven't already, take the dpression test and see what your score is. if you score pretty high i think you should consider finding someone to talk to (i.e. a close friend in whom you trust, an adult, a counselor, psychologist, etc.), especially if you are fantasizing about suicide. hope everything turns out okay. good luck.