trying so hard...and failing
This is so hard...
The large blister on my arm burst today and soaked the sleeve of my top. I doubt it will get infected.
I need to cut and drinking is the only thing that stops me. I can't remember where I hid my sharp razorblades...so I can not give myself exactly what I deserve.
I need to, i need to punish myself for not being good enough for anyone. For being so pathetic and so damn weak.
Sweet and hateful love,
becon me to hell,
place your blood-stained lips on me,
tell me all is well