im soo sorry you have to go through this.
i am sort of in the same situation im dealing with major depression, major anxeity disorder.
i might be diabetic.
and life sucks sometimes but you have to continue.
for all you know you could kill yourself and end up in a worse place then this.
anyway though please dont do it.
dont add to the thousands of suicides that happen every day.
please dont do it i whole heatedly care for you.
and i would like to show you something you said in another thread.
"I, Sara Elaine, promise never to commit suicide"
if you commit suicide you will break the chain and everyone else that signed the chain will have been let down.
you are reasponsible for those people you made a promise and if you didn't think you could keep it then you CANT sign.
you stuck im sorry but you can't do it you read the agreement before you signed.
and you excepted it.
and we are here for you to help you through this dont give up!